Since the last couple weeks, I have been struggling with this MD and I feel so overwhelmed with the stress and off balance. I really hate this disease and it really wreck my life. Sometimes I felt I just wanna die but I put my thoughts into something else to get myself distracted. I have been doing knitting and crocheting since it now my new hobbies and I enjoyed making things that I am proud of and not to think the negative thoughts.
The weather been going crazy lately, it really affect me daily like roller-coaster. One day I have good day and then next day bam I got bad day!! Some of the nights I couldn’t sleep with all those noises in my head and it really drives me insane!! I wish my husband can understand what it really like what I am going thru daily and it not “all in my head” type of things. I still seeing my therapist of how I been dealing with all this.
Last week Sunday was worst attack ever, I went to church and then all sudden I got so dizzy and nausea. I had to find a safe place and found a room has a couch and I slept for 2 hours to let the attack pass. I felt so bad for unable to be with my husband during Sunday School class and help him cook lunch for after church service. It’s hard to deal with it day to day for unknowing what gonna happen next.
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